Hi everyone,
It’s been far too long since you heard from me. In between drafts, relocating to a new country to start my MBA, trying to find balance, paying bills upon bills, and questioning everything, I am doing okay.
I wasn’t okay for a few months. I acted and seemed okay, but at night I cried like a baby. I wanted to write, you know, share monthly updates about my Japa journey and give cool advice and whatnot, but it was hard. I couldn’t. Aside from the ups and downs of days, I had to regain control and find joy again, even though I was dealing with so much anxiety and stress.
When this year started, I felt more in control. I visualized it with a vision board, excel sheets, the word of God, journals, and books. I started this year with a fast, and it was awesome. God’s promises embraced me, and I could see light at the end of my journey. Truly God is awesome. He kept me and loved me, and he continues to do so, even when I act out. He’s always with me.
Backstory:
I must say, the year 2022 brought a lot of blessings my way. I took a bold step to pursue my MBA in a school that wasn't my first choice, but I went for it anyway. The entire process was quite demanding, from applying to different schools, funding, visa application, and travel. Initially, someone had promised to fully sponsor my MBA, but life happened, and I had to rely on God and a few friends to pull through. Work challenges such as delayed salaries made me uncertain about continuing. I couldn't share my plans with friends, and it wasn't until I boarded my VA flight that the reality of my relocation hit me. God’s grace found me because what my eyes saw during my process, no be beans.
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The present:
I'm constantly learning to rely on God since I know that I cannot accomplish anything on my own. I am in a better frame of mind now, seven months and 24,500 worded academic essays later, along with the hours I spent speaking, thinking, and studying. Yes, I still have expenses to pay. Unlike in 9ja, this country does not allow for winging it. There are so many things that support me on a daily or weekly basis, like my family, friends, community involvement, church and God fellowship, K-Drama, food, walking an average of 60 kilometers a month, and other tiny random things. I’m thankful for them and the little things, honestly.
It's wonderful that I'm experiencing a new country as well as God's love and faithfulness, and it's even more wonderful to rely on him. I've learned a lot, I'm an MBA smarty, and I'm rediscovering myself. It’ll end in praise!
Isaiah 58:11 NLT
The Lord will guide you continually,
giving you water when you are dry
and restoring your strength.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like an ever-flowing spring.
I’ll definitely write to you again, hopefully, more often and we will celebrate together.
If you are going through a tough time, there’s light at the end, in fact, there’s light a few steps away, don’t give up, and be calm.
If you have questions about studying abroad, starting an MBA, etc-- please feel free to reach out to me.
Thanks for reading.
With love
Toby -D
#FillingswithTobyDonut
It's good to read from you again Tobs.... I'm glad you are learning to find joy in the little things and you haven't lost your flair for K-Drama...LOL
God's got you mama. I'm looking forward to your next write up...